Look Into the Future

Stronger And Stronger Each Day^^

2009-02-16T03:41:00.000-08:00

hehe since the day we have been together baby my feelings for you are growing more and more each and every single day...13th Feb 2009 , i remember this date, and this day forever and ever...thats the happiest day of my life^^ the last 7 months of hard work was worth it, evendore i fail alot of times, but its okay i'm willing to try harder and harder just to get to you...now i got you by my side i will cherish and treasure every moment we spent together baby..honestly, baby there is no one out there that makes me feel this special way other than you, you were always there to cheer me up when i'm down, always there to pull me up when i fall and showing me how much u did care about me and love me...THX BABY love you so much!! Muacks~Baby dont be afraid or scare i will never hurt you or do anything bad to you, you will always be safe with me..i will oni love you , care for you , be there for you when you're blue ,giving you my hugs when u needed one and sharing everything i have with you^^ so dont afraid and let me take care of you baby! evendore we have been argueing a few times,but its okay..forget bout the sad times and think about our bright future baby. i trust you baby, and i hope u trust me too..each and everyday my feelings for you are growing stronger and stronger and stronger...my love for you will never decrease it will only increase and increase...^^ love you so much baby girl ~!

Muacks muacks~~!!
*hugs*hugs*

Happy Valentine's Day!!

2009-02-14T06:45:00.000-08:00

happy valentine's day to everyone out there , and to all those love birds wished you guys happy and make sure you cherish the one you love or confess your feelings to them if u havent, dont wait cuz once u miss the chance it will be a lifetime regret..^^ Be brave and confess to her/ him how much u love them and show them how much u care for them...GOOD LUCK!! well i'm not gonna miss telling to my girlfriend too!!^^ if i didn tell her how much i love her now, i dont think i will have the courage to tell her that next time..baby for the past 7 months i've been waiting and trying my best to get you, evendore the road was tough and lots of time i have fail.after all its worth it...baby u are the only one i think each morning when i wake up , u are the one i wished for everynight and you are the one i dream each and everysingle night..You're the one i wishing and hoping for so long!! and now i have finally get you by my arms, and i will cherish and treasure every single moment we spent together. Baby i will only love you and you will gonna be the last girl i ever love so much!!! i'm gonna spent the rest of my life with you..so baby if you are reading this...i mean each and every single word that i have said..

Baby I Love You So Much~ !!!
Muacks Muacks!

A Wonderful Gift~!!

2009-02-14T06:05:00.000-08:00

hehe....i think today is gonna be the happiest day of my life^^ Today i went out with my baby, rui chin, chun hoe , wai meng and hui pink to sunway pyramid...i am the first one to reach there so i line up first to buy movie tickets actually we are planning to watch the " Bride Wars" but no more tickets already all full !!! and the line was like very long i waited for aruond 15 min to buy the tickets and all the movies also no ticket liow so our last choice was "Eden Lake" after i bought the tickets thn me rui chin and hui pink waited for my baby , chun hoe and wai meng to come..they reach around 1.20 pm and our movies have already started..haha we are all late..but hui pink and wai meng didn see the movies they went to Neway? to sing? hahaha so left me,my baby , rui chin and chun hoe went for the movie...trust me u dont wanna see that movie.. it was freaking boring and u wont know wat is it saying too...@@ after the movie we went to gasoline? and had our lunch i guese ? hahah after finish eating my baby was like, i bought for you a gift and she gave it to me^^ it was a very nice neacklace love it so much!, thn she help me to wear it..feel so happy at that moment..how i wished that i could just stop the time at that moment...xD baby thx for your necklace i love it very much!!! muacks muacks!!!!

I love you so much baby~~!! xP
I will always remember our yue ding!!
Muacks~!!^^

13th Feb 2009 - My dream came true!!!

2009-02-13T03:00:00.000-08:00

YAY~!!!! after so long, my one and only dream came true!!...i still remember like last night i'm thinking bout how should i confess my feelings towards you and i'm feeling very nervous, last night i am like hoping that you might giv me a chane today,and you did^^ thx baby..muacks ..thx god for finally letting me having her by my side agn..this time , baby i promise u that i will never gonna leave you ever again, i'm gonna hold on to you tight and i will cherish every moment i get to spent with you^^ ...today is the happiest day of my life^^!!!! haha...baby you're the one and only girl i love so much!! muacks ...After so many obstacles that i have went through i finally made it,each and every fall i've learn to be stronger^^, Each time i fall i love you more and more...so baby dont afraid to fall cuz i'll be the one who will hold you up when u fall and i'll lend you my shoulder to lie on when your down, i'll will always gonna be your sunshine^^ love you lots baby~!!!

muacks!! *hugs*hugs*

Valentine's Day Is Just Around The Corner...^^

2009-02-10T19:42:00.000-08:00

Woooo~!!!! valentine's day is coming already,now is like already 11th Feb just another 3 more days till valentine dy..haha...damn i hate this year...how can valentines day fall on saturday??!! hahah....Nvm ba..wish that we could go out together ...haha....Attention to all those love birds out there...Enjoy your night, and have fun with your lover!!! hahaha....well i plan alot of stuff to do during valentine, haha hopefull all also prepare liow..lolx..plan since last year? end of the year? lolx...so fast plan liow...so there is one question i would like to ask the special someone, Wong Yoke Kien, Would you like to be my valentine? XD

S.H.E - 安靜了

2009-02-02T22:18:00.000-08:00

只剩下鋼琴陪我站在這裡,
夢想中屬於我們的婚禮,
卻成了單人結婚進行曲,
在這場愛情角力的拔河裡,
愛我還是愛你你選擇了自己.

撒嬌的可愛的黏人的愛哭的照片裡曾經的都是你喜歡的,
如今我還在原地你卻走回你的記憶

你說我愛你太多就快要把你淹沒,
你害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落,
分開是一種解脫讓你好好的想過,
我想要的那片天空你是不是能夠給我.

你說我給你太多卻不能給我什麼,
分不清激情承諾永恆或迷惑,
愛情是一道傷口我們各自苦痛,
沉默是我最後溫柔是因為我太愛你.

只剩下鋼琴陪我站在這裡,
夢想中屬於我們的婚禮安靜了在我枕邊的夢裡,
我知道相愛原本就不容易,
愛不是1加1 努力就有結局.

撒嬌的可愛的黏人的愛哭的照片裡曾經的都是愛著你的,
臉頰的淚還溫熱卻沒有人握我的手.

你說我愛你太多就快要把你淹沒,
你害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落,
分開是一種解脫讓你好好的想過,
我想要的那片天空你是不是能夠給我.

你說我給你太多卻不能給我什麼,
分不清激情承諾永恆或迷惑,
愛情是一道傷口我們各自苦痛,
沉默是我最後溫柔是因為我太愛你.

What Some Ppl Says..

2009-02-02T07:29:00.000-08:00

here's wat some ppl say bout loving someone...some ppl say that if u really love someone u should continue wait for her to show her that u care, some ppl say that to wait for a girl, you have to see wheather is worth it or not? ...some ppl say if that girl dont love you at all wats the point of you continue waiting for her? is just a waste of time..I've been questioning myself quiet a number of times bout this ques@@ and i still dont noe how to answer this questions myself...my frds says follow your heart, but i and my heart are no longer together cuz each time i trust my heart, it disapoints me so i decided to seperate it from me, but now if i have to trust my heart agn, i'm afraid that i might fall agn...My thoughts tell me not to give up , but i got a feeling that i will fail...?? why? is it because the fate of both of us is already stated there? both of us cant be together? or is it i'm just a kid thinking that you still love me? or am i just dumb to still love you after all i know that i will still fail? its not easy to let go someone you really love evendore you said that you've had, if i have said that i have forgotten you, than its a lie...cuz the truth is i cant...lolx..so many questions i have to answer and face myself...who will be there for me when i need one? frds might help some, but the most is from myself, when oni i can untie this knot in my heart?

Going Back Soon!!!!

2009-02-02T06:35:00.000-08:00

YAY....at last i'm going back to malaysia already...haha i've been waiting for this day way too long..tomoro is 3rd liow 4th i am going back and i will be going to school on the 5th...haha get to see my frds at last...lolx...get to play ball at last...hahah...so mny days didn touch basketball liow...erm..my fligh is on the morning 7 something i will be reaching around noon? 12 something or 1 i guese...go back gonna buckle up dy, study hard liow lo...Xd

Vodka agn..=)

2009-02-02T05:48:00.000-08:00

haha...tonight i when out with some friends and have a wonderfull dinner they belanja me makan...haha so good...lolx i think should also lo...cuz 1 year i oni can see them one time, and they can oni see me once a year too..haha...so we went to a japanese retaurant and had our dinner...order around 10 dishes? haha...than drinks?? erm.... we had vodka, some red wine....haha and more vodka..i had the orange vodka...lolx..drink 1 glass oni than my face so fast red liow...haha...my friends are like , WTF u cannot drink de a? so fast face red liow...lolx...my face just like red apple oni...haha..feel so hot inside, when go out that time i dont feel cold at all..somemore i wearing T-shirt ..lolx..they all wearing jackets..Xd
Hot till like that,erm..our dinner is about 4000+? around malaysia 400+lolx...quiet expensive..@@

If I Could , But Could I ??

2009-02-01T02:44:00.000-08:00

If I could turn and walk away,
And start all over again..
I can forget I ever knew you,
I could live in a world of pretend.

But everytime I open my eyes,
It's back to reality.
Things I've tried to forget,
Are back again with me.

I could go through life,
Never saying your name.
I could live each day..
Looking for a place to lay the blame.

I could feel bitter,
For the way things turned out.
But I choose not to be,
That's not what I'm about.

I could forever long for you,
And this I'll probably do.
If only I could've touched your face..
At least one dream would've come true.

I could say I hate you,
But it would be a lie.
I could wish I'd never met you,
So I'd never had a sad goodbye.

But no matter the tears,
The aches I felt inside,
I still can't regret knowing you,
My feelings I've never denied.

I chose to remember you,
The way you were with me.
Things you said and felt..
I hold in loving memory.

Even though it was a heartache,
Only waiting to begin,
What I experienced with you...
Was the best place I've ever been.

if you are looking at this poem, i hope that u know i still love you, and i still care bout you...

Maybe Tomoro , Or Never ?

2009-02-01T02:21:00.000-08:00

When I think about what we used to be,
I cry and cry in spite of me.
It just seems crazy that was just last year,
Just last year I barely cried one tear.

Now I'm just hoping maybe tomorrow,
Maybe tomorrow there'll be no more sorrow.
Maybe tomorrow you'll give me a glance,
Maybe tomorrow you'll give me one last chance.

Maybe tomorrow you'll give me a call,
Maybe tomorrow I won't cry at all.
Maybe tomorrow you'll hug me tight,
Maybe tomorrow you'll kiss me good night.

Maybe tomorrow you'll take back my heart,
Maybe you'll give me a brand new start.
I'm living with dreams that won't come true,
For you will never love me as I love you.

2009-01-29T05:57:00.000-08:00

Mood swing..hmm dont noe why today my mood suddenly chg..haih...dont think so much ba, maybe tomoro will feel better a bit..

Broken Dreams =(

2009-01-29T02:45:00.000-08:00

I love you more than life itself,
But I am afraid to love,
My heart is like the fragile wings,
Of a tiny little dove.

I'm scared to get too close,
I feel that I can't win,
You'll love me for a little while,
Then you'll set me free again.

I've lived so long on hopes and dreams,
I don't know what to do,
I don't think I can trust my heart,
For it belongs to you.

I know you'll only hurt me,
Yet, I still keep running back,
Between the paths of our hearts,
There's a worn and beaten track.

You've got my heart held on a string,
It is breaking right in two,
Enough belongs to me -to hurt- ,
The rest belongs to you.

I know that somewhere in your heart,
There is a place for me,
I just don't know how to find it,
And there's no way to make you see.

I can only hope that someday ,
You'll wake up and you'll find,
That while my heart belongs to yours,
Yours, too, belongs to mine.

Days Without You..

2009-01-29T01:25:00.000-08:00

I miss you so much day and night,
I can't realise why you're gone,
I just think I treat you right,
but now I'm again alone.

The days without you are so long these days,
Without your kiss and smile,
And I don't know what I've done wrong,
I've been thinking of this for a while.

A few questions that I need to know ,
Why does my heart feel so bad ?
Why you could ever hurt me so ?
Why can't I get you out of my head ?

Now I'm standing here alone,
With this weight upon my heart,
Wondering why you're gone,
Remembering our feelings from the start.

In my mind I have all my memories in a range,
Each moment spent with you is unforgettable,
But I can't realise what made you change,
For me this is just un-get-able.

I know I won't pull trough without you by my side,
So baby come to me don't run and hide,
The only thing I want is to be with you,
Please baby make my wish come true.

Don't you know that you make my days count?
And I'm always happy when you're around,
But now that you have choose a different part,
And there is nothing i can do but to see you leaving,
Seeing you leaving our memories in the past...

It doesn't matter what we do
As long as I'm here with YOU

Drink Drank Drunk!!!! @@

2009-01-28T03:37:00.000-08:00

lolx...haha..i think my cousin's dad and all my cousin's are like all crazy or should i said insane?? haha...erm..today we are like having lunch bout 12 something and my parents invited alot of frds and we all ate at a restaurant about 5 tables? haha thats alot of ppl...@@ all of us are like drinking drinking and drinking, i think i am gonna fall sick soon =( , cuz i am not really a drinking material in a simpler way to say is i cant drink...lolx...but nvm la happy ma, once in a year with so many frds , cousin's and also my grandparents..^^ erm...first we had the taiwan beer,thn we had red wine, and also some vodka...haha so many..Xp
haha finish our lunch bout 3.30 went home, i straight go sleep...hahah totally drunk...@@

Just You

2009-01-27T17:14:00.000-08:00

You're the first thing I think of,
Each morning when I rise,
You're the last thing I think of,
When I close my eyes.

You're in each thought I have,
And every breath I take,
My feelings are growing stronger,
With every move you make.

You're an angel from above,
Who takes away my pain,
My love for you is so strong,
It's always just the same.

You're the miracle in my life,
Who can always make me smile,
Just knowing that you care,
Makes my life worth-while.

You are everything I want,
You're so pure and true,
I love you with everything I have,
And I love everything that you do.

More than words can say...

2009-01-27T08:05:00.000-08:00

baby i cant use words to explain how much i love you, and how much i care about you...I felt lucky that i met you biii,when i'm down and i needed somone u will be there for me..when i'm sad u will always tell me jokes to make me laugh...haha...Thx Bii...i believe you are a gift from god to me, and i will treasure everymoment i spend wit you^^...Evendore we are fall apart,my love for you will never change...you will always gonna be the one in my heart...Love you so much biiii~!!!!

muacks!muacks~!!!

Haih..wont be online till back malaysia de...

2009-01-27T07:45:00.000-08:00

haih..i wont be online or blogging of tomoro night onwards liow...cuz i will be going to other place with my parents and i wont be bringing my laptop...sobsob =( have to wait till i go back malaysia liow...ermm..there maybe a slightly change of date i going back to malaysia..maybe i am going back early going back on the 2nd feb or 3rd if got flight...hmm..hopefully i can go back early cuz i already so mny days didn go school...miss out so many classes dy...sob=(

Boom !! Boom !! Boom !!

2009-01-25T00:47:00.000-08:00

Boom Boom Boom the sound of fire crackers the whole night..lolx..today is the day where everyone reunion and have a dinner all together...haha..I am starting to feel more like a family now, so many brothers , sisters , cousin..haha...grandparents were so happy to see all of us grown up already,erm i still remember what my grandparents keep telling me, they said i should study hard, cuz the money parents earn is not easy..haha..right now they are still telling me this @@...the whole night we had lots of fun together, playing all around with fire crackers..haha and my grandparents keep telling me to eat more!!! haha because i so skinny..i told them that i eat alot already but cannot grow fat dy, but i've grown much more taller each year..lolx..

Homeworks , Homeworks And Homeworks!!!!!

2009-01-25T00:19:00.000-08:00

S*%T i just ask find out that i got so many HOMEWORKS to complete..Damn!! my add maths i already like miss 2 class and i havent started the book yet and now my friends are like already 30 pages ahead of me?? OMG!! somemore i dont understand anything bout add maths, so complicated@@..haih =( when i get back i am gonna have a hard time getting back on the track...nvm i've gotta work hard ,harder and harder!!! haha...next year i am so not gonna come back taiwan dy, i come back i dont think i can catch up dy next year..like what teacher say " Practise Makes Perfect"haha i really found that usefull...Gotta Work Hard!!! Xp

Morning Call??@@

2009-01-24T20:35:00.000-08:00

haha last night i didnt really sleep well, and i also sleep quiet late...sleep around 12.30++?? and sleep half dy i like suddenly wake,like i am thinking bout something oni..haha..and i can already hear fire crackers early in the morning 4 something!!!! ..Wtf haha taiwan ppl so semangat new year...lolx...i dont think malaysia got like this gua? fire crackers early in the morning..Zzz than wake up dy nothing do so sien go miniclip play game...play till damn stress cuz cannot cross that particular level..LOLX
after a while i went back to bed agn...

Distance Wont Stop Me From Loving You...^^

2009-01-24T16:43:00.000-08:00

baby i just want you to know that no matter how far apart we are from each other my love for you will never change,you asked me wheather if i am serious or not? ..baby i would tell you that every single word that i have said to you i mean it...Dont worry,i wont do anything that will hurt you cuz i will only love you...You will be safe around my arms biii^^
i will stay awake for you,i will be your guardian angel watch you over when you are asleep...Distance wont stop me from loving you, as long as we trust each other everything will be fine ..

love you lotz baby~ Xp
muacks!!

Yipee New Shoe!!!!

2009-01-24T08:16:00.001-08:00

Yay today i bought a new basketball shoe..hahaha for basketball freaks out there i bought the Kevin Garnett Ts Bounce Commander Shoe!!! haha love it so much..erm...bought it bout 4300++ which is malaysia's 430++
haha gonna upload the pics soon~~lolx

New Year,New Hope

2009-01-24T07:52:00.000-08:00

haha...yea i know its a new year agn, yesterday was like 2008 and today is like 2009 already !!!!! haha time passes so fast, i still remember when i first enter form 3 i was like F*%K this year i am gonna sit for PMR and thinking all bout PMR ..lolx..than now its all over already...haha time flies so fast..Alot of Sad and bad memories i had in 2008 and now is 2009! .Time for me to forget the pass and start a new life, like wat idioms says turn on a new leaf,thats wat i am doing now...^^
Letting go of the past and start a new day with no worries..Happy all the time is better than crying or sad..haha

Well thats all i am gonna say~
GoodBye 2008 !! Hello 2009 !!! XD

Cold And Silence =(

2009-01-24T02:07:00.000-08:00

Without a word was how you left,
The silence kills my soul,
Cold from the hurt my heart will stay,
But my love for you I'll never let go,
So I'll die with hope of thinking you'll come back,
But love and trust was everything we ever lacked.

Goodbye was what you could have at least said,
Or maybe I'm just not worth those words,
Or was it fear of seeing tears,
Well if so i hope you know they fall in the shadow of my soul,
Were my conscience calls to your name.

In my gallery are pictures of you,
You'll find in my heart,
Were dreams are only dreams made to never come true,
Those wishes i made were all just fairytale,
But I'll always be dreaming dreaming of you,
Because baby it's you,
The one i plead for the one i bleed for,
The one i need to hold on,
Looks like i'm just a guy that hope so much but none of it is true...

2009-01-23T19:04:00.001-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year To Everyone!!!!
Gong Xi Gong Xi!!!
Enjoy Collecting Ang Pau's XD

2009-01-23T18:55:00.001-08:00

Secondhand Serenade RockZz!!!!! haha
So touched by their songs..T.T
XD

Secondhand Serenade - Awake

2009-01-23T18:46:00.000-08:00

With every appearance by you, blinding my eyes,
I can hardly remember the last time I felt like I do.
You're an angel disguised.

And you're lying real still,
But your heart beat is fast just like mine.
And the movie's long over,
That's three that have passed, one more's fine.

Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything
I don't wanna miss anything
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything.

I'm trying real hard not to shake. I'm biting my tongue,
But I'm feeling alive and with every breathe that I take,
I feel like I've won. You're my key to survival.

And if it's a hero you want,
I can save you. Just stay here.
Your whispers are priceless.
Your breathe, it is dear. So please stay near.

Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything
I don't wanna miss anything
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything.

Say my name. I just want to hear you.
Say my name. So I know it's true.
You're changing me. You're changing me.
You showed me how to live.
So just say. So just say,

That you'll stay awake for me.
I don't wanna miss anything.
I don't wanna miss anything
.I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything

Cant SleepZz

2009-01-23T07:40:00.000-08:00

hmm...tonight i dont think i can sleep at all?? haih...dont noe what am i thinking also...so many things i am thinking about right now...things that i cant solve,so many questions that i cant answer...So confused@@ ...haih...

I Have To Be Strong!!!

2009-01-23T07:11:00.000-08:00

Haha wat comes around goes around...i think i finally believe it... you made your choice.. its written black and white so there is nothing i can do to change it,we cant be together already i think ??... i feel sad thats all ...haha...Dont really wanna think bout it so much already, the more i think the longer my blog will be..haha..This time i have to be strong and walk on!!! hehe where i fall is where i should stand up!!! XD

God Why?

2009-01-23T06:12:00.000-08:00

hmm...recently so many things happen..dont noe how do i start and how do i end...Just that alot things bothering me, feeling very down..haih..but i guese wont be so long gua..so mny questions i keep questioning myself,i cant answer perhaps u can GOD...GOD why do u made us so close and we had a chance to be together but in the end u made me dissapoint? why do you let me down? why do u have to seperate us and let us back agn ? are you playing me or are you testing me? If you are testing me guese wat, i am giving up dy,i cant bear the pain inside my heart any longer...The wish that i made everynight is i hope that i will get a chance to be with her..but looks like u took it away from me, Now i feel that the distance of both of us is getting further and further maybe she will never return again..haih.. I no longer have faith on myself like i used to be like before...when i trust myself everything get ruin..hmm..GOD if i really dont deserves to be with her than i wished that she will always be happy and she will find someone much more better than me...Thats gonna be my last wish, if u wanna make me suffer i dont mind....Dont make her suffer, she deserves a much more better life than me... if u asked me why? the reason is simple...Cuz i only love her...

Secondhand Serenade - Stranger

2009-01-23T05:55:00.000-08:00

Turn Around,
Turn Around and fix your eye in my direction,
So there is a connection,
I can't speak,
I can't make a sound to some,
How capture your attention,
I'm staring at perfection,
Take a look at me so you can see,
How beautiful you are.

You call me a stranger,
You say I'm a danger,
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight,
I'm broke and abandoned,
You are an angel,
Making all my dreams come true tonight.

I'm confident
But I can't pretend I wasn't terrified to meet you,
I knew you could see right through me,
I saw my life flash right before my very eyes,
And I knew just what we'd turn into,
I was hoping that you could see,
Take a look at me so you can see.

You call me a stranger,
You say I'm a danger,
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight,
I'm broke and abandoned,
You are an angel,
Making all my dreams come true tonight.

You are an angel,
Making all my dreams come true tonight.

Take a look at me so you can see,
How beautiful you are.

Your beauty seems so far away,
I'd have to write a thousand songs to make you comprehend how Beautiful you are.

i know that I can't make you stay,
But I would give my final breathe to make you understand how beautiful you are,
Understand how beautiful you are.

You call me a stranger,
You say I'm a danger,
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight,
I'm broke and abandoned,
You are an angel,
Making all my dreams come true tonight.

You call me a stranger,
You say I'm a danger,
You call me a stranger.

Realise:

2009-01-23T04:26:00.000-08:00

hmm...now i finally realise wat i really meant to you..haha..i thought i was more thn that but it was just a dream after all, its so easy to say i love you,but do you even mean it? i think not, i thought both of us might be happy together but you dont think so...maybe we just dont deserves to be with each other after all, i thought we got a chance to be more than a friend...hmm looks like i'am wrong agn..haha..now i realise that i cant trust my heart anymore,cuz NONE of it is true.Its always wat i wanted but not you ...This will be the last time i ever love someone so much i think...hmm...anyway thx for your love that u show me before,appreciate it very much..every happy and sad moment spent wit you i will cherish it... Hope u find someone better than me..Good Luck!!!

Damn Colder And Colder !!!

2009-01-23T03:55:00.000-08:00

Aiks~~ getting colder and colder each day liow =( now morning is like 13 degree and at night is below 10!!! awfully insane..Zzz next year i am not coming back already...haha..Now already got flu, whats next? sick? haha i am ready...Mr sick give me your best shot!! hopefully my body can tahan Xp..time faster past la, i wanna go bac to my home sweet home...haha ...miss my bed, my toilet ,my friends , and the sound of basketball and volleyball....lolx

should wear more clothes!!! damn
Grr

Again and again i fail...

2009-01-22T05:05:00.000-08:00

haih...currently there is nothing else for me to say anymore, what i want to say i have already said, if u cant appreciate wat i did for you..okay than i respect your decision,i wont ask u anymore...hmm thought about giving myself one last shot, as i dont believe i cant get you..haha..why am i so naive? so stubborn? i've always trust the decisions i made but this time...this one last time,i should let go already....After so many times i fail why do i even still insist to go on ? From now on i will not trust my decisions anymore,as i know none of them is right, and i think the hardest thing for me to do is letting u go...but this time i will...My friends told me,to give up but i still go on...haha...why am i so dumb?? haih..
when a guy loves a girl he will become eventually dumb...hmm
thx for giving me the answer..i respect your decision...Good luck!!!

Missing You So Much~!!

2009-01-21T05:25:00.000-08:00

hmm..baby i could not explain to you how i feel right now,now is only the 7 days here and i am already missing u so much...every morning when i wake up i think bout u, thinking bout how are u today, hows your day at school? did anything happen to you or not..Just so worry bout u,evendore u told me that u are gonna be fine but i still worry bout u cuz i am not there with you...i dont know how will my days be without you..sob =(
everynight before i went to bed , i pray that you will be safe, happy and dont let anything bring your mood down..i've always wanted to see the you, in the sweet warm smile and laughter everyday...^^
dont be disapointed if u fail or anything kay? i believe that your friends wont blame you..everyone makes mistakes,just like me i've done so many things that have hurt you before and after you are gone,i regret...but now i learn from my mistakes ..i promise you baby that i wont repeat the same mistakes that i have done 4 years ago...I will be the one, who is loving you,caring you,always be there for you when you're down, and the angel that will be watching over you when you sleep at night...^^

Baby i miss you so much~!!!

Freaking Virus!!

2009-01-21T05:19:00.000-08:00

Arghh!!! F&%K la my comp kena virus liow ....haih...didnt know that,that was virus thn i go click on it..thn comp kena virus liow...damn dulan...haih dont noe when oni i can online agn ,now i using cousin laptop online and blog oni..Now is oni 21 i still need to wait for another 14 more days oni i go back to malaysia..haih..=(

1st Day Didn't Go To School

2009-01-18T21:38:00.000-08:00

hmm..obviously i wont be going to school for this whole week cuz,currently i am not at malaysia..lolx...hmm..today woke up kinda early,automatic wake up like as if i know that i should wake up..i thought that as if i'm still going to school..when i wake up i realise that i am not in my house. hmm wondering how is she doing in school today ? Is she okay ? Did anything happen to her ? haih so worry bout her...wished that i was there to watch her over...feel like as if i'm missing something, missing the other part of me, missing her smiles and laughter..

baby i miss u ~!!

Freezing!!

2009-01-17T17:29:00.000-08:00

hmm...i am freezing to death!! sob =(
didn know that the temperature here would be so cold..Morning is like 16 degree and is already very cold and at night is below 10 degree's!!! what do you think?? ..hmm...i think i am gonna get sick soon...

baby i am feeling very cold,wished that u could be here wit me, cuz i wanna hug u...^^ baby i miss u so much~ another 17 more days oni i can see u..haih =(

Talk To Me And Let Me Know

2009-01-17T16:01:00.000-08:00

Talk to me and let me know
When you think our friendship will grow.
It's hard for me to say how I feel
And to make you know my feelings are real.
Sometimes you act like you feel the same
But, other times, like it's just a game.

You confuse me with the way you act,
Many times, I don't know how to react.
My friends all see it from a different view,
They say I'm wasting my time with you.
I often start to feel the same way
But, I get a feeling, I should hold out one more day.

I hope to show my friends are wrong,
Do you think it will take very long?
If you would tell me how you feel,
Then I'd know if your feelings are real.
We have great times when we're together,
I hope it stays this way forever.

So, do you think our friendship will grow?
Do you think the wishes i made everynight will come true?
All i need is for you to trust me one last time baby...
If my wishes do come true pls let me know..

Being There For You

2009-01-17T08:04:00.000-08:00

My love for you it will be forever,
I promised you to work out the problems together,
If you ever needs me I'll give it my all,
And work out the troubles be they big or small.

I'll hold you when you're down,
And from you're face ,
I'll take you frown,
I only wish to make you see,
I'll give you nothing but honesty.

My goal in life is to make you smile,
And as for that I'd walk more than a mile,
If you ever needs anything all you need do is ask,
Because I feel that's an easy task.

I really do love you so,
There is nowhere I wouldn't go,
I'd cross deserts and mountains and even the sea,
Because with you is where I should be.

When I'm with you there's nothing to say,
Except I promise to love you each and every day,
Nothing could be more important to do,
Than just being there for you ,
I just want you to know that
I am and will always be there for you Yoke Kien

Missing You so much Baby

2009-01-17T07:22:00.000-08:00

Baby i miss u so much =(
barely even 1 day and i am already missing u so much...
I dont know how would my days be,without u by my side..
sobsob =(

Baby everyday,every hour, every minute and every seconds i'm missing you so much~!! wished that time can passed by fast,...

The Special Somone..

2009-01-14T18:36:00.000-08:00

Some one has cast a spell on me,
I wonder and wonder, oh who could it be?
Someone makes my adrenaline pump and my heart race,
Every day this someone puts a smile on my face.
Someone has magically made me fall head over heels,
But sometimes I wonder how my someone feels.
This someone has conquered all my thoughts,
And hit me emotionally in all the right spots.
My wishes were granted when we first met,
She fills my days with happiness and delight,
She gives me a feeling I've never felt before,
Her great personality, is one thing I highly adore.
There's something in her that I can?t explain,
Her smile and laughter make me go insane.
My companion, my partner, my joy and very best friend,
The connection between us, is a circle that will never end.
I hope my someone knows how much she means to me,
I don?t know what else to do to make her see.
This someone is one of the greatest things in my world,
I'm so happy she's my girl and I'm his man.
I can't find words to express how I feel inside,
We tell each other anything, there's nothing to hide.
She swept me off my feet by just being true,
Now to be next to her is all I want to do.
Why do I want her in a way I can't express?
Why do I think she's the best of the best?
There are so many reasons I could go on and on,
Sunrise to sunset, dusk till dawn.
Who is this someone you ask?I'll tell you who,
Yoke Kien, my special someone is you

My Last and Final Goodbye

2009-01-14T18:29:00.000-08:00

You'vealways loved him,
And now I can see,
That the one in your heart,
Was never me.
All of those times,
You held me close,
It was him that you needed,
And loved the most.
It's hard for me,
To swallow my pride,
Knowing that my love,
Was the love you denied.
When I see you with him,
I force a grin,
But really my heart,
Is breaking within.
My love for you,
Is stronger than ever,
But I know in my heart,
We'll never be together.
So I'm letting you go now,
With tears in my eyes,
I'm telling you my last
And final goodbye.

Love's A Game

2009-01-14T18:27:00.000-08:00

Love, likea lick of candle's flame,burns all hearts in its wicked game.The inevitable games, when love begins,pride-blinded players, in a game no one wins.Is the lesson to learn from our mistakes? Or do we suffer enough with so many heartaches?Are tears that fall like so much rain,from the well of the souls of those who loved in vain?Those who try to smile when their hopes are fading,whose dreams have ebbed and a love waning.Never cry for what others have wrought, remember instead the love you've sought,for one day soon, the fates will align,there will be no epiphany, no signal, no sign.Love will happen, no matter your plan,like waves to the shore, caressing the sand,your heart holds the key, to the love you will find,as all things in life, it's a matter of time.Forget not, those painful tears of the past,remember and be fond of the loves you've had,because all of your life is a blink of time's eye,and of time, like love, you can never ask why.

Back To Taiwan...

2009-01-14T17:51:00.000-08:00

hmm...this saturday on the 17th of January i am going back to my hometown..haha...hmm dont feel like going back at all...go back there oni visit my grandparents and some friends oni..so BORING...and i wont be attending the school for 1 whole week..which counted as ponteng..haha...have to ask my dad to write a letter to the school..my flight is on afternoon 3p.m..i will be going to the airport around 12 something..erm..dont noe wheather should i go for volleyball training or not...i think i wanna ask my dad to let me come bac earlier but the ticket already book so i think is a lil bit hard..i think i am gonna bring pendrive and safe dota in it so in taiwan i wont be that boring ad...at least get to ply wit my friends...hahaha

Surprise ??? I think not..

2009-01-12T20:21:00.000-08:00

haha now is oni the 2nd week of school and our class got 3 new student 2 of them are guys and 1 of them is girl ...One of the Guy name is garreth and we call him LOBAK( which stands for carrot ) hahaha...and the other guy is fong yat seng and we call him Sin Kor..i call him the lion king...LOL =) ...and the girl name is Atiqah erm..dont think i spell it correctly...And guese what this new girl *LIKES* me!!! ZzZz thats what they all said ,but i think its not funny at all...hmmm cant even concentrate at class i can feel that she is always looking at me...WTF and he ask me wheather where i stay? and can she come to my house and do hw wit me...?? Zzz She Even ask me to make paper rose for her?? = . = ..she keeps calling me and says that she love me...hmmm....just want you to know that i will never ever gonna fall in love with other girl other than YOU
* Yoke Kien*

Sienzz

2009-01-12T20:15:00.000-08:00

hmmm....so sienz at school right now i am having computer class and teacher allow us to use internet so i blog lo...hahax...hmm so sien la...nothing can do ,teacher dont let us to play dota,whoever plays dota teacher minus away our 30 merit...lolxx i dont even think i got so much merit also...if play dota than sure kena 1st warning letter liow de...@@ hmm our school came so mny new students mostly from the lower senior upper senior oni a few oni...hmm

there is something need to tell everyone on my next blog..
something very shocked ...haha

thats all for now....chiowZz
=)

PC Spoil

2009-01-11T01:14:00.000-08:00

hmm....pc spoil already when done fixing will be back blogging...

So confused lately...@@

2008-12-22T22:30:00.000-08:00

haih..i am so confused lately@@.. dont noe what should i do and wheather what i did was right or wrong...all this decision's made is it right ?? did i follow my heart?? >.< ..is this relationship gonna last..?? i myself also dont noe..i dont noe how should i answer this question...u said u wish me happy, is this what u truly want? i guese i dont have any choice right now.. i am not pschic and i cant see the future so i cant predict what is gonna happen next...right now i am still thinking wats my next move??? day by day hoping that u would return but i dont think its possible anymore right?? hmmm if u would return than maybe its miracle than...sigh

沒有玉娟的日子- 第11天

2008-12-13T20:49:00.000-08:00

hmm... 已經十一天了我們沒聯絡了...
一轉眼, 十一天就過去, 時間過得還真快...
但是在我心里, 總覺得這十一天以來過得很慢,
我真的很希望時間能過得快一點...
因為我決定要把你給忘記...
我想把我們的一切都忘了...

這6個月以來... 你給了我很多很多的美好回憶... 很多甜蜜的時刻...
我真的很想念那些日子...
這6個月... 我真的用心良苦的追你... 但是你每一次都令我失望... 一次一次的拒絕我... 我真的很想知道為什么... 為什么你就不能接收我??
難道我對你做錯了什么嗎?
還是我以前有什么給你不好的影像??
你就不能接收我的愛一次嗎?
我真的真的很想和你在一起..
你每次對我說你這不好那個不好...
我覺得你錯了... 對我來說, 你是在這世界上, 我遇見和相處過的最好的女子..
我多么的希望我們能在一起.... 但是你選擇了要一個人...
還是你已經愛上了另一個人?
看來我的夢想是不可能成真了吧?

我心里還有許多活想告訴你, 很多事想讓你知道,
但是看來這一些對你已經不重要了吧?
看來我的存在對你已經不重要了吧?
每一晚我許的愿望是不會正真了...
我還記得你對我說你的夢想你將來你想當個空姐, 想當個空姐學業一定要很好吧...要是你已經決定了,我成群你!!! 好好的努力往前走吧!!
我永遠都支持着你!!
黃玉娟你一定要好好的努力哦!!!!!
黃玉娟你一定要好好的活下去!!!!
也許將來你會找到一位比我還好的人...

這幾個晚上, 我都看着月亮... 想這你... 想這你的笑容... 想這你.. 對我說話的語氣...
我真的真的很想念你...
我很希望你可以一直配在我的身邊...

你不是真正的快乐

2008-12-13T20:19:00.000-08:00

人群中哭着
你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会
梦或痛或心动了
你已经决定了
你已经决定了

你静静忍着
紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜
就是越伤人了
越是在手心留下
密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了
於是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则
不是你的选择
於是你含着眼泪
飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞的走着

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯
完全的癒合
我站在你左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了
然後才後悔着

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯
完全的癒合
我站在你左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了

你值得真正的快乐
你应该脱下
你穿的保护色
为什麽失去了
还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤
全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着

Your Choice..

2008-12-11T06:39:00.000-08:00

hmm..well i dont think there is anything left for me to say anymore...In the end , the ending is still the same after all...nothing have change , maybe this is just my faith after all ,from the beggining everything have already been set...maybe u deserves to be with someone better than me after all..i am not good enough for u..If your reason is because of Spm and exams than i wish u good luck and hope that u will do the best in your exams...The moment u said NO , my heart sink and i think this is first time i have ever felt so sad before...well u have already made your choice i dont think there is anything i can do to change it, hope that u will find someone much more better than me 1 day...Wish u all the best!!!!

Shattered Pieces..

2008-12-03T06:43:00.000-08:00

Inside my sleeve, I pull out my heart,
handing it to you, "careful it's fragile,
and easily falls apart."Extending your arms, you take the heart in
your tender warm hands.It falls into a million shattered pieces on the floor it lands.
You begin to bend down to pick it up, sorrow and sadness in your eyes.
Apologies are not enough.Looking at you with tears in my eyes,
I ask you not to pick up the pieces of a heartthat has fallen apart.
I am the one who needs to pick up the pieces of my shattered heart.
one by one, piece by piece.I need to put it together again, some how. some way.
Each piece of my heart has a memory so true.Each piece of my heart has part of you.
You are the one who is leaving to start a new lease on life.
I'll just be here on my knees picking up the pieces of a heart that feels like it's being pierced with a knife.All my tears won't keep you near..
All my tears won't mend what's not here.
Again I look at you with a whisper in my voice,
The only way my heart will mend and finally be complete,
is if you and I can come together without being discreet.
You see, what we have here and today, helps me face the world, with a love for you that gives a glow...but now, my baby, you made a choice.My heart is on this floor, shattered and broke.
With each piece I pick up ...I need to learn to let go.

Enjoy your holidays and Have a Safe Trip..

2008-11-11T03:59:00.001-08:00

Hope u enjoy Your Holidays And Have a Safe Trip...^^
Miss u lots~
Take care o...

Yuyu
muackz~hehe^0^

Its okay to fall,no matter how hard is it for me i will stil WAIT for You...

2008-11-01T08:58:00.000-07:00

hmm...wad happen? why must things always happen when i am soo close of getting u? God are u testing me? are u testing my love for her? if u are i will prove to you that no matter how many times i FALL i will still stand up and I will never give up...i will prove to you that I really LOVE her and my love towards her will never change..haih eventhough each time my heart is hurt but it doesnt matter..anything for u is WORTH it,including sacrificing my life for u..each time i fall i learn to be stronger..i fail this time is because i have made a very dumb move, i choose someone else to replace you from my heart, hmm the reason i be wit her is because i wanna try to forget u...but no matter how hard i try i jus cant, u really meant alot to me..eventhough we cant be together but seeing your sweet warm smile i happy le..as long as you are happy i am happy too.. i just want u to know that how much u mean to me.. and how much i love u.. BABY i will always LOVE u!

Scare T.T

2008-10-10T03:24:00.000-07:00

huhuhu...i am gonna jog to school tomoro early in the morning..haha..omg damn scary..imagine i am the only guy on the highway jogging and some place are dark and scary too...T.T think bout tomoro i also scare liow..hmm...well just dont think soo much gua..maybe is not that scary...hmm...i will pass by the graveyard lar!!! arghh!! scary...anyways PMR IS ON MONDAY!!!! haha...kinda nervous and scare..i have to read through all the teep that i have done and see where my mistakes are...well i keep telling myself is not pmr is TRIAL 3...haha so that i wont feel that scare..haiyo so ma fan la..need bring passport go school...!!!!

I Will Try!!!

2008-10-09T03:14:00.000-07:00

haha..i have been thinking for a few days and i decided that this saturday i will try to jog to house on my own..haha sounds CRAZY right ...i also think that i am crazy..lol..i think i will wake up at 6.30 and start jogging to school..hmm..maybe 30 minutes or 45 minutes i think i reach school le..u might think i amd lying or joking right..haha but i am not..i wanna try this and i believe i can do it..@@! but it might be kinda scary doh...i have to start jogging bfore sky bright and haven to jog alone on the highway...haha..talk to my parents bout it liow..well guese wat did they say..my dad agrees to let me do it...and my mum says NO!!..lolx she said is not safe to go out bfore the sky bright...haha but dad say aiyo nothing de la..is not like he is still a 5 year old child or a girl is he...than mum nothing say liow..haha..kinda nervous and scare but nvm i have to overcome my fears and learn to be stronger..XD

Impossible??

2008-10-06T05:50:00.000-07:00

haha as usual la...nothing much more to say morning wake up 6 and wait for mr.ariff to come take me than go school study...haha well this morning we had a imteresting topic to talk about ..we were talking bout running...mr.ariff were asking bout wheather next year i still wanna continue volleyball or not?? i said ya but got no transport so early in the morning...and guese wat he said..he say u should jog from your HOUSE to SCHOOL..!!!! and he said is not far actually its only 4000m!!!!! damn far right? i think if i would to do it it would take at least 1 hour or more than that to reach the school..after that my leg wont be able to walk liow..lolx...actually i am thinking bout trying it this saturday ...XD but have to wake up before sky bright and i dont think my parents let too....hmm...see first ba...what u guys think huh? crazy? insane?lolx

Boring HolidayzZz

2008-10-03T00:48:00.000-07:00

sigh..i thought that holidays would be fun but the 1 week of holidays for me is like extremely BORING ....well me and my family didnt really go anywhere or wat...just went bac to melaka and visit some relatives thats all...melaka so sien la..nothing to see also..alll also bout history..other than that i have been helping mum doing houseworks fyi my maid went bac indo for holidays liow so i have to help do works..haha so rajin leh..as usual lo..early morning wake up at 7 go jogging till 9.30 like that thn help mum do work le..well thats all i can say for my holidayZzz

It Just Isnt There

2008-09-25T07:39:00.000-07:00

I just don't know what to do
Why am I still in love with you?
I know you don't love me
And that's the way it should be
He loves you, and you love him
Funny to think that's the way we were
So much love used to be there
Then, somehow, it vanished into thin air

How can I get over you?
Then love other people too
I hurt so much
Just knowing we're so out of touch
It hurts to know you don't care for me
And it can't be the way it used to be
I want you back
But he has all the qualities you love and I lack
I hope you two are happy together
Since it can't be us....Together Forever.

Sigh*

Lost in his love

2008-09-19T01:25:00.000-07:00

Your words of pain enter my heart,I can feel them,I can almost touch them,Yet I have no real magic,I can only give you my love,But love does not seem to be potent enough,Your wounds are too deep and painful,I enter them and try to find a resolution,There is none,I try to find some glimmer of hope,There is none,Your heart is ice cold,No fire can melt it away,At least for now,Please come back to me,Open your heart,Open your arms,Open your eyes once again,You are blinded by his love,You are fueled by his love,But where are you,I look into your eyes and a vast sea of emptiness floats before me,You have given yourself to him,You are so loss in love wit him.
and why?

Broken Heart

2008-09-17T19:01:00.000-07:00

I will never forget the days we once had

The days when you were everything to me

My mind used to tell me we'd be together forever

But now I realize that was all a big dream

The feelings I have for you will never go

I wish I could take back that one regretful day

The day when I willingly let you slide from my arms

Never did I think of the astonishing pain of regrets

That I would once have to live through

The sight of you in someone else's arms

Makes my heart shatter into a million pieces

I sometimes wonder if you still think of me

Or if to you, I'm just a face in the crowd

I wish so very much that one day we can have it all back

But for now, I'll sit here silently

Remembering all the memories we once shared

Everyday my love grows much stronger

Hoping that one day you will feel the same

And put back the pieces of my broken heart.

Losing You Slowly

2008-09-17T14:48:00.000-07:00

Everyday I regret pushing you away
Afraid that I might lose you forever
And that I might not get a second chance
If only I could turn back the clock
I'd tell you how much I care for you
How much I wish I could be with you
To hold you when you're feeling down
Or to hug you when you need a hug
But I'm afraid I've lost you forever
And I'll never get a second chance with you
Because u had fallen for him...
Now i am afraid that i am losing u slowly..

Now You're Gone

2008-09-17T13:41:00.000-07:00

I'm relying on Fate
To take me away
To the place I know
I can always stay.
I'm not independant
Because I had you
Now you're gone
What do I do?
I can't close my eyes
Before I sleep
Because I'm scared
Of the tears I weap
I once held you close
Now I dont have you at all
I went so far!
We did it all!
We was like, perfection!
Nothing could take your place
My heart would only accept
The beauty of your face
But now you're gone,
I'm left nothing to do.
Apart from take my life
Because of you.
I dont want to do this,
I dont want to say goodbye.
But I will with courage,
And a tear in my eye.
Would you notice me gone?
Would you even care?
All I ever wanted to do
Is tell you I'd be there.
But you pushed me away
Down a long lonely road
And all of this..
Because I moaned.
I love you.
It wasn't ment to end this way
But now arrives fate,
And leads my life astray.

Wat more can i say..?

2008-09-12T03:08:00.000-07:00

Mistakes are part of life. They teach us that some things shouldn't be done again or we should be tough and dont ever give up that easily, mistakes can also lead us to a lifetime suffering. I know this is true for because of my mistake, I lost you... If only promises could erase the past, I could open my heart enough to take you back. But we've been down this road time and time again and I've learned the hard way how the story always ends the truth always hurts??..Sometimes I wish I'm different and maybe unique? I wish I'm more than what I am right now. You know why? Cause maybe if that happens, the person I love will learn to like me, to care for me, to love me. I just wish you would...hmm I have come to realize that destiny can hurt a person as much as it can bless then I found myself wondering why out of all the people I could have loved, I had to fall for someone destined to be taken away from me by someone else..?

Haih...Blister blister and blister..

2008-09-10T05:53:00.000-07:00

well...why am i so unlucky today?? my leg now got 3 blister liow ..haih..maybe jogging cuz de gua..haih..like my toe got hole oni..inside like got water de..lol..hmm...well today i think i jog the longest i jog 1 hour and 45 minutes...wa..quite tiring le didn noe that jog also can be so tired...but nvm for next year champion i will never giv up and i promise her le i will get first..hehe..another scary story when i jus finish jogging bac it was around 7.30 and the sky here was kinda dark..and i have too jog bac so far and the road lights are all spoil so the roads are like all black and i can oni hear my footsteps and see my shadow...damn scary...next time i will nvr jog till so late liow..makes me feels creppy..somemore nearby my house here got alot indo ppl..haih...

Nice haircut..?

2008-09-08T05:31:00.000-07:00

hmmm...sunday i jus had my hair cut and monday i kena cut agn by teachers...****..my side soooo short liow they still cut...make me look like a japanese girl...= ="..now make my hair so short..haih...now i have to wait for another 2 more months for it to long agn...hmm so longgg!!!...and waste my another 20 bucks go cut my hair agn...****..hmm

Next year i am gonna win for yellow house running!!!

2008-09-07T02:14:00.000-07:00

well..next year i am gonna get first in running for 100m, 200m, and also 400m for Yellow House..and hopefully i can be 'olahragawan"@@ did i spell it correctly?? ..hmm well i its quite easy just to say but i am starting my training now le...and i am gonna prove that i can..evendore my leg muscles hurt but i believe if i work hard i will succeed , bah kata melayu berbunyi" Sikit-sikit lama menjadi bukit" haha..hmm i think my toughest challengers are viveshen, kai sheng and wong kuang jin..haha wait for me u guys i am gonna beat u guys NEXT YEAR...and i will prove to U that we must have faith in ourself oni can succeed and dont easy give up so +u+u i believe that u can...

*last sentence is for someone special in my life,whom is very important to me and she is a part of my life, believe me u will succeed*

The other part of my heart needs U..

2008-09-06T05:58:00.000-07:00

I don’t know why I keep on loving you despite the fact that I’ll get hurt again just like before. I never learn cause I don’t want to. Not now when I’m still strong to fall for you over and over again...and when I say I love you, please believe it’s true. When I say forever, know I’ll never leave you.. When I say goodbye, promise me you won’t cry. Cause the day I’ll be saying that would be the day I die...evendore my heart hurts badly but I don’t regret the rain or the nights I felt the pain or the tears I had to cry some of those times along the way. For every road I had to take ,every obstacles i had to face, every time my heart would break, it was just something I had to do to get me to you..if i giv u H-R-T? What would you add to these letters? EA or U? EA you get heart, U you get hurt. Now, what would you pick? Well, I would pick U because it’s better to get hurt than have a heart without U...twinkle twinkle little star i wish could be with her every night, watch her fall asleep and kiss her goodnight. When I get to heaven, I know just what to do. I’ll spend eternity watching over her...i had a dream and God asked me if I were to live again what would I be. I told him I want to be an angel to guide you. He said, “But you don’t have to guide another angel.” I then answered, “Well, I can love one.” ..hmm i hope that one day u will accept my love and let me stay by your side...

Truth hurts..haih..

2008-09-04T02:32:00.000-07:00

Before, I asked God to give me someone special to love. I found you then lost you. I asked God why and He answered, “But my child, the one you asked for asked for somebody else..."I love you” doesn’t really mean that I want you to be mine. In fact, it’s another way of saying, “I’m happy to see you happy with someone new even if it’s killing me.” So I guess I love you...evendore i cant bear the pain but i would still say i love you..everynight jus before i go to sleep i would make a wish,Maybe the gods were sleeping when I asked for you. Maybe the angels were somewhere else when I wished for you. Cause if they only heard me praying and wishing so hard, he wouldn’t have you, I would...those wishes is it really not gonna come true? It’s hard not to love you, it’s hard not to care and it’s hard to live without you. But I have to try cause it’s harder to bear the pain of knowing you don’t feel the same towards me ...Once in my life, I met someone whom I loved and cared for. I gave everything, I fought for her. But one thing I forgot to do is to ask if she wanted me to but she told me that she didn love me at all...i have keeping this three words I wish to say to you, three words that might scare you away. Don’t you know those three words describe who you are to me in my life? But probably right now those three words that I wish to say are the same words you said to him...There are times that I’m about to give up cause there’s no way I can make you mine. But why is it that every time I’m ready to let go, I end up falling for you all over again?? why?For many times I said I wouldn’t love you anymore yet every time I lay my eyes on you, my heart starts to state these silent words, “I’m still not over you.”It’s okay if you can’t love me nor even think of me. I’m not asking you to. It’s really okay for me if you can’t cause you see? What I told you was “I love you” not “please love me too”..maybe one day u will find a guy u truly love...It’s unfair to think so much of you when you’re not missing me at all, to cry when you never shed a tear, to love when you say words that hurt my heart and to live when you breathe for someone else.

Lies

2008-09-03T05:53:00.000-07:00

This lie's become a part of me
For months, I've played this game
Acting like it doesn't hurt
Each time I hear her name

Ignoring what's inside of me
Pretending I've moved on
As if the feelings I once had
For u are somehow gone

Those night all those messages
was it all jus a lie or true?
Thn all of sudden u seem to change
All those words that u use to say to me
U nvr said agn..
why?

Spending each and every day
With happiness and laughs
Forgetting all our memories
Avoiding photographs

But last night when I saw u
For the first time since u left
My heart stopped for a moment...
I couldn't catch my breath

When suddenly it hit me
As the tears started to flow
That even after all this time...
I just can't let u go ..

why am lying to myself? why cant i forget u?

i hope that u will find a more suitable person for you...

Be happy?

2008-08-31T22:22:00.000-07:00

be happy?

how does happy feel?

wat does happy means?

does happy means spending the rest of your life wit the one u love

will i get bac my happy feelings agn?

or it will dissapears into the universe?

~~~~~~~~

well all that doesnt really matter at all

Its just a feeling

as long as i can see the sweet warm smiles of hers thn its fine..

if she would have lost her love feelings , i would do anything including sacrificing my life in order to get bac her feelings,

wat really important is 'her"

even till the end she still prefers other guy thn me

i will no regret, cuz i believe that the choice she made is always right

right now wat i can do is be at her side guarding her ,tell jokes to make her laugh, borrow her shoulder to lean on when shes down, always be there for her till she find the right guy for her...

what U mean to me in my life

2008-08-31T05:29:00.000-07:00

Will you ever really know?
Will you truly understand?
Will you ever really see?
Come here and take my hand.

I'll tell you, I'll show you,
I'll guide you to my heart,
I'll let you into my soul,
From me you'll never part.

I dream every night when I sleep,
But my dreams are only about you.
You occupy my every thought,
You're in everything I do.

I can't imagine who I'd be,
Or what I would be like
Without having you here with me
As the center of my life.

You're the stars in my midnight sky,
You're the millions of fish in my sea,
You're the hot, bright sun in my world,
And that's what you mean to me.

A Bad Nightmare...

2008-08-30T21:42:00.000-07:00

last night had a nightmare,
a very bad nightmare indeed,
i dream bout u leaving me and my shadows behind,
i dream bout u having another guy by your side
but its not me,
God is this dream really gonna happen to me?
God is this nighmare really gonna happen?
Pls tell me that all this is not true,
Tell me that thats not really not gonna happen,
The wish that i made everynight will it happen or its just a fairytale after all?
The girl in my dream will be another mans future?
Tell me that this just a bad dream...

arghh hand pain...!!

2008-08-30T21:29:00.000-07:00

haih hand still so pain now...yesterday went pyramid with yong wei, alex, darrren , alex and me play archery while darren and yw thr laughing at us...well this my first time playing archery and its a very nice game to play and release anger..haha...the first game we play was very noob...he arrorws were like flying here and thr..thn me and alex tak puas hati and ply another round and this time i did better ...haha at least can hit the center le..but when holding the bow my hand was like keep shaking and so hard to control.. jus feel as if like the hand is not mine anymore..now my whole left hand is suffering from pain..haha..but its worth it la..no other way to release anger thn i release it on alex board and alex shoot mine board..haha
..at least my heart now feels much more better..

Feelings In My Heart

2008-08-29T04:44:00.000-07:00

I love you more every day,My name I long for you to say.Do you know just how I feel?Do you know this love is real?Sometimes I wonder what you think.When you hear my name, do your cheeks turn pink?Do you dream about me every night?Wish to hug me and hold me tight?Do you think we're meant to be?Together forever, you and me?These are the questions that run through my mind,Your way into my heart, you did find.It drives me crazy as to what I should do,Should I risk a friendship and confess to you?Or should I keep my feelings inside,Keep them locked up, let them hide?I just don't know what to do anymore,My heart it aches, my heart it's sore.I love you more than you could know,And I don't want to ever let you go.So even if I'm just a friend,I'll always love you until the end...

Merdeka Celebration..

2008-08-29T02:31:00.000-07:00

Well today our school had our celebration in the hall...first we watch the shuffle done by the lower seniors and 2 form 3's which is lau n ck...lol..." lau u damn hyper' lol....thn follow by the reading sajak...hmm quite boring...thn performance by the upper seniors shuffle agn...well obviously they are much more better... after breakfast class was at usual but our teachers came up a prank...tell the whole school was on fire...thn all of us had to go out n go bhind our school...We all did this twice somemore the day was so hot...well i think thats wat we do today at school...

Good Luck and Take Good Care Ms.Josephine

2008-08-29T02:10:00.000-07:00

Haih....well one of my favourite teacher is leaving to some place else to teach...hmmm kinda sad..hope that she dont leave us...well maybe sometimes she can be a joker too..whenever she sees me she will say yes" taiwan boi" haha...so love " taiwan boi" lol...well wish u good luck in wat ever u do n take care...^^ i will always remember u ...

~Take Care~

-"Taiwan Boi" - haha

Its a hard decision for me @@...hmmm

2008-08-28T07:57:00.001-07:00

haih....well i have been thinking for a few days le wheather one to officially giv up or not...i ask some of my friends for opinion and guese wat did they say....yuyu giv up la ,she no feelings for u one no point u wait for her, even if u wait she wont feel " gan tong " de..hmm well if thats really true thn thats what makes me continue loving her...i will spend my every last second wit her if this is my last year in this school..if didn change i will spend my very last drop of soul waiting for u...no matter how long it takes..i will wait,hmm i finally realise why some ppl is willing to sacrifice for their love ones and without feeling regret...maybe its worth it..? If it were me i am willing to sacrifice my life to change your happiness...our life is full obstacles and we must learn to stand up whenever we fall...

The Hole in My Heart

2008-08-28T07:46:00.000-07:00

When you left,You took a piece of me.I constantly find myself.Down on bended knee,I see you in my dreams.Every night and day,I run to be in your loving arms......But you slowly walk away.Why do you do this?Why do you run?I'm afraid to think You're seeing someone other thn me....haih....i noe that i have done something awfully bad before n makes u hurt and now i am changing to a better person for u....i know u will feel insecure wit me...but i will prove to you that i am serious this time and i will hold u tightly and never gonna let u go..

Makes Me Hard Not To Think Of You

2008-08-28T03:24:00.001-07:00

You're the first person I think of,
Each morning when I rise.
You're the last thing I think of,
When I close my eyes.

You're in each thought I have,
And every breath I take.
My feelings are growing stronger,
With every single move u make.

You're an angel from above,
who takes away all my pain.
My love for you is so strong,
It's always gonna be the same.

You're the miracle in my life,
Who can always make me smile.
Just knowing that you care,
Makes my life worth-while.

You've touched my heart and soul,
Which you have from the start.
Your warm soft words,
Will never ever gonna leave my heart.

You are everything I want,
You're so pure and true.
I love you with everything I have,
And I love everything that you do.

Its just imposibble for me not to think of you....

You And Always Will Be You

2008-08-28T03:03:00.000-07:00

The first thing I think of is you
When I think of you,
Is your wonderful smile that keeps me going on,
The second would be your adorable and sweet laugh.
I could go on and on,
But the list would never end.
When I think of the seconds,
That we've been together,
And of all of the happy memories we've already shared
It amazes me to no end
And I know that we were meant to be together.
I look at you and see overflowing love, hope, and joy
As well as charm, strength, happiness and dignity.
With all of these wonderful qualities
It's no wonder why I love you so much.

-Takumi-

2nd Trial and Final Exams Coming..!!!

2008-08-28T02:48:00.000-07:00

wa...feel like time pass so fast jus finish my 1st trial recently thn now gonna sit for my 2nd trial agn...hmm.. gonna need to work hard le...this time must get better results thn before...I must prove to her that i not only Love her but i am also good at my studies...+U+U..GOOD LUCK TO ALL MY FRIENDS AND ESPECIALLY TO "HER +U+U YOU CAN DO IT DE BELIEVE IN YOURSELF" haha..hmm well today was quite boring...all subjects sien de..and our class teacher is emo at us..she didn enter our class for 3 days liow lu jus bcuz of some silly things gary did...lolx~~but i think wat gary did was right la, she scold us for talking to girls??..doesn't make sense right?...was wrong wit talking to friends..?hmm dont noe wat she thinking la..

Well i guese thats for now...
-Takumi-

知道（郭靜）

2008-08-28T02:12:00.000-07:00

她讓你憔悴許多　她讓你不知所措她一舉一動你不停地對我說
我微笑傾聽你說　我卻越聽越心痛
怎麼你說的不是我

她比我多了甚麼　讓你願意　耐心等候

我想知道她讓你癡心　是甚麼
我想知道她讓你瘋狂　為甚麼
我知道做的和她沒有不同
但是我　卻不在你心中　逗留

我想知道她哪裡比我好更多
在你心中她和我有甚麼不同
我知道我比她付出的還多
可是我　總換不了你的　心動

你讓我憔悴很多　你讓我不知所措
你一舉一動我的心被牽著走
她不經意地走過　你就把我給冷落
嫉妒把我給吞沒

她比我多了甚麼　讓你願意　耐心等候

我想知道她讓你癡心　是甚麼
我想知道她讓你瘋狂　為甚麼
我知道做的和她沒有不同
但是我　卻不在你心中　逗留

我想知道她哪裡比我好更多
在你心中她和我有甚麼不同
我知道我比她付出的還多
可是我　總換不了你的　心動

我知道了她哪裡比我好更多
在你心中我永遠不可能會讓你心動
我知道我比她付出的還多
可是我　在你心中沒有她多

Changing School Next Year..??

2008-08-28T02:08:00.000-07:00

haih...really dont feel like changing to another school..the reason i change is because of my sis..?dont bcuz of my sis change school thn i have to follow de ma...kinda sad one to leave all my best friends and my favourite teachers in school...hmmm try to convince my parents n see how..haih actually thought that can sty in this school wit her till form 5 de but maybe cant le...hmmm dont noe when i chg school le she will happy de ma...? Feel so Bu sher de to change school....Feels so weird to be in a new school..

Well guese thats it for now..
-Takumi-

Feelings..?

2008-08-28T02:01:00.000-07:00

haih....
currently feeling kinda down...hmm actually is sad...well the one and only girl i love seems dont have any special feelings towards me..well wat more can i say..?hmm it is the fact, i will have to accept it, or maybe she just deserves someone much more better thn me..?someone who will be there to take care her , borrow her a shoulder to lean on when she's sad, makes her happy all day long...Well this might be my fate..everyone deserves a second chance but will i..?hmm...as long as she happy wit her life no matter who she choose i will always respect her decision...As long as can see her smile thn i am happy le...

well i guese thats it for now...write agn went i am free
-Takumi-